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Witnessing : The other side of Sensual Massage

4/6/2014

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As most of you probably already know, I am a Sacred Intimate, Tantrika and a Massage therapist that specializes in Healing Touch and Body Awakening Massage.
I love my job, everything about it, the people I meet, the connection with the other person, the magic that happens when mindful touch, breath and orgasm come together and the person I am working with leaves feeling a million times better than when they first walked through my door.

Sometimes I can be a bit judgemental If I am honest, when I hear about the trauma that goes on behind closed bedroom doors. You see my client's confide in me a lot, they know that the information they share with me is confidential, the common thread though is that everything comes back to Sex and Intimacy.  They come to me because they are lacking in this department and my offerings involve Touch, lots of it.
I am sure that I wouldn't see half the people if their partner's actually took more effort in touching them. So when I say I am judgemental it is because I feel for my client's, I empathize with them and I get a little annoyed on their behalf that they are having to endure a relationship that does not totally fulfill their needs. I know that everyone has a choice and it is their choice of whether they stay or go...that's another blog post altogether.

So I am very aware within my own relationship with my partner of 6 years that we need to as a couple keep the home fires burning and the spicy juices flowing.
Even though I am facilitating pleasure pathways for other's on a daily basis it is extremely important for me, to not neglect my own relationship.  So once in a while my partner and I will organize a weekend of shared massage with fellow practitioners or like minded friends.  Usually these shared massages will be four or six handed massage, we share our skills and our love for touch, have a lovely dinner together and a laugh together etc.  On all previous occasions I have been instrumental in my partners massage with other practitioner's, so when it has come time for him to have his "happy ending" release, I have been the one with my hands firmly on the controls.  Until last week that was...

Last week, we did it slightly differently. Last week, I got to watch from across the room, while my beloved received his pleasures from another woman...a beautiful wild redhead called Jan.  I could already feel that this new experience was going to be a biggie for me, the energy was  coursing through my  body as I watched her tenderly take over the reins of my stallion with such focus and dedication. At some point during his massage, I could feel my own root chakra burning, then my bladder kicked in and I wanted to evacuate the building and get away from this ritual, as far away as possible.  My beloved was enjoying himself, and I felt left out.  In my world I was the one that was in charge of his pleasure, and here was someone else showing me, that he could experience pleasure without me.

I got to feel very different very quickly as my own buttons  were being pushed. Buttons that I didn't realize were still active, lurking in the shadows, ego, fear, insecurity, jealousy... I found it very interesting to sit in these feelings and let them flow in and out of my own body and my mind. even though I wanted to run, I stayed and witnessed the experience unfolding in front of me, I kept on telling myself that this was not about me, but all about him.  That in my love for him, I should allow him to enjoy his pleasures without feeling guilty..it wasn't as if he was doing this behind my back, I was in the room, we had discussed the scenario and the intentions prior to the massage taking place and it had been my own idea, as Jan I are were going to be working together doing Four Handed Massage,  she wanted to show me her technique, and my man, was the willing guinea pig. Any excuse for touch or a massage, he will raise his hand..

When I got out of my shit long enough I was able to enjoy watching them as Jan worked expertly, moving the energy around his body, keeping him in a constant state of ecstasy, bringing him to the edge and then holding him there, until finally she allowed him the full body pleasure of orgasm.

In his afterglow, I lay with him and Jan and we talked about our individual experiences of the session.  I was grateful for the experience of awakening,and for the gift of love that I had given him, by allowing him to receive pleasure from another. I had also had a few realizations of my own, and was able to receive the gift of seeing things from a partner's perspective.  Two of the helpful realizations that came to me, was 

1.  I had witnessed my partner, as if I was the wife of a client.
2. I was now aware of  how my own partner feels when I work with clients. 

He was more aware too, of how important mutual touch is during a session. As during his session with Jan, she made sure that he was able to put his hand on her leg or her back, as this created the connection for the life force energy to flow, just like an electrical circuit.

I do this connection thing too, but from outside, watching my partner connect with Jan, did make me feel weary, but then I sat in those thought's and realized that I too, do this with my clients, and it does not mean that I want to jump the fence or leave my man for my client, this is just the way we work as Sacred Intimates, Tantrikas and Sensual Massage therapists,  this is why our clients feel so good when they are receiving touch from us, they feel connected through touch, reciprocal touch.  Having my partner affirm this fact to me in his own words, was great affirmation and permission in a way. This was good!

I also had a third realization, and that is, it is very important to feel like one is part of your partner's experience, I am sure that had I been included in the session with Jan and my man, I would not have felt so insecure, and I wouldn't have wanted to run away like a hurt little child.  But had I not had the privilege to witness this whole scenario unfolding in front of me, I would not have had the first two  realizations that made me more aware of my own client's feelings, and I would not have been inspired to write this post for other's to be educated on what happens on the "other side" of a Sensual Massage session.

I wholly encourage couples to find new out of the box ways to connect with each other and authenticate their relationships.  As well as encouraging open communication and adding a bit of spice to your life, it is worth it.. life is too short to be scared about stuff, wouldn't it be better to embrace new experiences, at least once? And if you really don't enjoy the experience at least you can say, we won't be doing that again, or hell yeah, lets have more of that!

Love Pauline
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Recovering from Incest: Healing the Inner Child Within

25/4/2014

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This is not going to be an easy blog post to write, but I am feeling led to complete it, due to the fact that lately it seems that I have been attracting beautiful souls with broken inner child issues. In layman's terms these are both Men and Women that experienced Incest from an early age. (Remember that there are many ways for incest to occur, I will delve into this subject in a later blogpost)

These are the Adult Children of society.  What is significant to me is that all these A.C are realizing how important it is to release the pain of childhood memories, because they have awareness that their childhood trauma's are having a detrimental impact on their personal lives with their spouses, their friendships with others, their careers and most importantly the health of their bodies.  They have realized that they need to rescue what is left of their Inner Child Within and start the recovery process so that they can start living again.

While it may seem that I have made the assumption in this instance that the abuse of the Inner Child Within was administered by the "Parent", sometimes this is not always the case, it could have been a brother, an uncle, an aunt or an older person that was placed in a position of responsibility to care for the child. For ease of writing this post, I will refer to this act as being perpetrated by the Toxic Parent. In my opinion and in the opinions of so many other researchers and authors of this subject, is that the symptoms of Adult Children have their foundation in the dysfunction of the Family of Origin. 


REVENGE
While so very tempting this method is not recovery at all. Revenge will however "Bog you down", create frustration and further unhappiness, work against your emotional well-being, stir up emotions between you and your parents/perpetrator, waste precious time and energy.

UNCOVERING AND ADMITTING
"The pain of admitting that our parent's were not capable of loving us (in perfect healthy ways) is much greater than the pain of believing that we were "bad" and didn't deserve love. And so we remain foreclosed, until the pain becomes so great that we must change. In other words our symptoms, our addictions and our pain are really our allies.  They tell us when the "Little Child Within" has had enough and want some help to grow up" Linda Friel/John Friel - Authors of Adult Children - The Secrets of Dysfuntional Families

CONFRONTATION USING THE WRITTEN WORD
Confronting your tormentor in person can be very hard to do, especially if they are in denial which will most likely be the case.
A lot of strength and preparation is required on your part to confront this person that has hurt you.
Letter writing is one safe way that you can confront your attacker from a distance, it is also a way to communicate your feelings if the person/s is dead. 
Normally there is more than one person that has to be held accountable for your pain, because of this more than one letter should be written. (4-6)
  1. Letter to the Aggressor (person that committed the action)
  2. Letter to the Parents (if they were not the Agressor, they were the enablers)
  3. Letter to the Inner Child Within
  4. A Fairy tale about your life (here you can be as descriptive as possible, The aggressor is the villian, you are the maiden in distress... you can start your story "once upon a time", even draw pictures...
  5. Letter to your partner (if you are in a relationship, most times your personal trauma has affected your relationship, this needs to be acknowledged in order to heal and move forward)
  6. Letter to each of your children (if you have any children, this has affected them too, whether you are aware or not)


 Your letter's should have 4 statements within the body of it , as a general guide these statements should look as follows:
  1. THIS IS WHAT YOU DID TO ME
  2. HOW I FELT ABOUT IT AT THE TIME
  3. THIS IS HOW IF AFFECTED MY LIFE
  4. THIS IS WHAT I WANT FROM YOU NOW


Most people find this very therapeutic, letter writing provides a wonderful opportunity to organize what you want to say and rework it until you are satisfied.  It gives the recipient a chance to read it over more than once and to reflect on the contents.  It is also safer if you are dealing with a potentially violent parent/aggressor.

Even if it never gets delivered, it is certainly one way to connect with your Inner Child Within and then release the past. I am not discouraging you to  deliver this letter, this is up to you.
Go slowly, find a support person that you can read your letters to.
If you feel confident to confront your tormentor, do so only with the prior agreement that they will listen and not interrupt. 
You may need to practice what you are going to say before the actual meeting.  
If you feel you need more help, contact a therapist that has studied "Family Dynamics" such as myself.

FORGIVENESS
It was not my fault! I am not to blame! (repeat this statement as many times as you need, until you believe it)

It has long been the belief that one needs to "forgive" our aggressor for he/she didn't know better...blah blah blah, cough bullshit!!! If this was so, why then are all those people that have "forgiven" their tormentors, still alcoholics, manically depressed, sexually fucked up and abusing substances and just not doing well with life at all? Why???

Forgiveness is  appropriate only when parents / aggressor do something to earn it. Toxic parents, especially the more abusive ones, need to acknowledge what happened, take responsibility and show a willingness to make amends. If you unilaterally absolve parents who continue to treat you badly, who deny much of your reality and feelings, and who continue to project blame onto you, you may seriously impede the emotional work you need to do. 

If one or both parents are dead, you can still heal the damage, by forgiving yourself and releasing much of the hold that they had over your emotional well-being.
* So you do NOT have to forgive your parents/aggressor. Emotional and Mental peace will come from releasing yourself from your toxic parents/toxic aggressor without having to forgive them.
It is time now to focus on you, your needs and start the rebuild!

DON'T BE IN A RUSH TO FORGIVE, THIS IS NOT A SHORTCUT TO HEALING OR FEELING BETTER, IT IS A PROCESS OF RECOVERY
How? This release comes only after you have worked through your intense feelings of outrage and grief, and after you have put the responsibility on their shoulders where it belongs.


  • Recovery is a process
  • Recovery cannot be done alone
  • Recovery is painful
  • Recovery means changes in how we feel, how we act and in what we believe
  • Recovery means getting out of our roles
  • In Recovery we Recover our Choices
  • Recovery requires transcending paradoxes
"Please understand that Recovery is lifelong, and it becomes less and less painful as we progress.
Recovery is a relearning process in which, step by step, we come to see and know the Little Child inside of us.

Recovery is allowing ourselves to experience the truth, at first, this is terribly painful. In the end, it lets us make that Child inside of us feel safe, warm, lovable, whole, proud, honest, peaceful and real." Linda Friel/John Friel - Adult Children, The Secrets of Dysfunctional Families
How do you begin?
First of all, you have already begun by acknowledging that something is not right.


I offer my services to you,to help you heal your way through your trauma.
All of my clients have found mindful body work combined with Reiki, Hot Stones , Crystal work, Talk therapy , Aromatherapy and even Absolute Surrender Role Play to be extremely effective in releasing emotional issues.
Understand that you are supported every baby step of the way.  Please give me a call to book a time to get you back onto the path of happiness and freedom.

Love Pauline
021 025 12226
"When you base the majority of your life decisions on how they will make your parents feel, you are relinquishing free choice. If their feelings always come first, they are in the drivers seat of your life." Susan Forward Ph.d - Author of Toxic Parents Overcoming their hurtful legacy and Reclaiming your Life
Honoring your feelings does not mean wallowing in them.  On the contrary when we can freely let go of our emotions they pass through and leave us free to act effectively.  Experiencing life fully in the present dissolves pain and allows us to move into the next present moment with clarity.

Powerful people are not those whose life flows with no pain, but those who have the strength to move through pain and come out richer on the other side.
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So things are getting pretty stale in the bedroom, answer this questionaire before losing hope and jumping the fence...

16/4/2014

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Touch is Super Important! I do not think we put enough emphasis on just how important it is, until it is too late. 
Touch is one of the Five Love Languages, the others are Quality time, Acts of Servitude, Gift Giving and Words of Affirmation.
Everyone has a dominant love language, and if you are aware of what your partner's love language is, you already have one of the basic tools that will place you on the road to having a more successful Sex Life, this I promise.


BELOW ARE 32 BASIC QUESTIONS THAT CAN HELP YOU PUT YOUR SEX LIFE IN PERSPECTIVE...
Give these questions some serious thought individually and then come together as a Couple and discuss your answers with each other, with LOVE and OPEN-HEARTED-HONESTY . 


Good luck
Pauline
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  1. Have you discussed your feelings/concerns with your partner?
  2. What are the kind of things that you feel are lacking in your love life?
  3. What would you like more of?
  4. Can you discuss your Sexual Fantasies openly with each other?
  5. Can you talk about Intimacy issues with each other without Blame or Criticism?
  6. How comfortable are you in your own body?
  7. How do you feel about your partner's body, does it turn you on or off?
  8. When last did you achieve an Orgasm together (Cock in Vagina penetration)
  9. How often do you Self Pleasure (Masturbate)?
  10. How do you feel about being witnessed by your partner while you Self Pleasure?
  11. How does your partner feel about you Self Pleasuring?
  12. Does your partner Masturbate you?
  13. If No, why not?
  14. When last did you arrange a "Date Night"?
  15. Do you have Financial or Stress Worries(These could contribute to a lack of Sex Drive and willingness to play in the bedroom)
  16. What is your partner's #1 Love Language?
  17. What is your #1 Love Language?
  18. What is your partner's Sexual Fantasy?
  19. How often do you Make Love with your partner?
  20. How much time is spent on Foreplay?
  21. Do you Make Love with the lights on?
  22. Does your partner require Clitoral stimulation or Penetration to reach an Orgasm ?
  23. Does your partner require the use of Sex Aids to reach Orgasm?
  24. Have you considered seeing a Sensual Massage Therapist together for a Couple's Session?
  25. Have you considered learning about Tantra or Erotic Massage techniques that you can take back into the bedroom?
  26. Is your bedroom a tranquil place that induces feelings of sensuality and romance, or is it scattered with clothes, laptops and other electronic devices?
  27. Do either of you have any injuries that may be contributing to your lack of sex drive?
  28. Have either of you been sexually abused in any way as children or young adults? 
  29. Are either of you on any form of medication?
  30. Do you gaze into each other's eyes when making love or do you keep them closed? 
  31. How loud do you get during a love making session, or are you silent, are you comfortable enough to let loose and roar during orgasm? 
  32. How comfortable are you to talk dirty during a love making session?

So? How did you fare, do you need to spend more time focusing on your partner's needs or your own? Have you figured out his or her love language? Have you tidied up the bedroom, discussed each other's Secret Fetishes or Fantasies? 
"Making Love with someone you know and trust is the best thing in Life, enjoy it with bliss." 

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    Pauline is an outspoken, passionate, down to earth kind of girl. Who loves helping people explore juicier ways of connecting with each other and themselves.  A long time ago bosom buddies advised Pauline to" never water yourself down", because she had a lot to share with others, so when life gets a bit tough.  Pauline remembers those little words to keep on doing what she loves and believes in.

    Pauline holds a Ministerial Bachelors in Holistic Theology, is a Level 2 Reiki Practitioner, Conscious Sexuality Coach and an Urban Tantra(R) Practitioner, a Mum, a Sister to three brothers. She lives with her partner, a crazy cat and two nutty dogs in their rural home of Te Aroha


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